Confessions of a Narcoleptic


Today, my baby, my very first born, turns eight. It was exactly eight years ago, almost to the minute, that this sweet little thing was born. He was such a good baby and was adored by all. Not much has changed!

This boy makes my heart swell when I look at him. I love him so much, it actually hurts. He really is such an amazingly special child. He is sweet, smart, funny, wise and charming. He will still volunteer to hug, kiss and snuggle with me and I am hanging on to all those moments with all my might. I know some day that this will change. I thought I would write a letter to Nate for his birthday tribute, as well as including lots and lots of photos! (I tried to include all of Nate’s oh-so-typical faces!)

Dear Nathan,

I love you. Oh how I love you. You are my first baby and I wanted you SO BADLY. I really did dream all my life of being a mom and you made my dreams come true. You were (and still are) such a beautiful baby with such a happy demeanour. It became pretty clear in your early years how clever you were. You were speaking in full sentences before you were even 2 and you were so good at expressing yourself. You were also very naughty. And what made it worse is that you knew you were being naughty, but you were naughty anyway. But because you were cute, you got away with a lot.

You amaze me. You are so darn smart – just like your Daddy. I hope you always use your smarts. I hope you don’t waste them. I see such big things for you. You really can do anything.

You are so musical. I love teaching you to sing and play the piano because you are so good at it and it comes so easily to you. I can’t wait to see where you will take this talent. Don’t ever be afraid to sing. You have a beautiful voice and girls like boys who can sing! 🙂

You inherited both of mommy’s and daddy’s stubbornness. This quality has already caused you some grief. Don’t let this stand in the way of you being happy. Sometimes, you have to let it go. And sometimes, you have to stay true to who you are and what you believe in. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something, because you can do anything.

You are funny. You make me giggle and laugh every day. I love how you like to make others laugh and feel good about themselves. Hold on to that. It’s a good quality to have.

You were so meant to be the oldest. You are a wonderful big brother, and your little brothers adore you and look up to you. They want to be just like you. Remember that when you are making choices. There are two little pairs of eyes that are always watching you.

Remember that your little brothers are your best friends and your responsibility. No matter how annoying Jax or Logan is being to you, you must always be there for them and stand up for them. Friends come and go, but family is forever.

I want you to always treat others with respect, but more than that, I want you to always be kind. Sometimes it isn’t easy or popular to be kind, but it is always right.

Don’t let anyone push you around. Don’t be afraid to be your own person. You can like whatever you want, and if someone doesn’t want to be your friend because of that, then they aren’t really your friend.

Respect your Dad. He loves you as much as I do, but isn’t as good at expressing it. I see the way he looks at you – his heart is bursting with pride over you. Always listen to what he has to say – he is very smart and will ALWAYS have your best interests at heart.

I hope we can always have the special relationship we have now. I hope you know that I will always love you NO MATTER WHAT, that there is nothing you can do that will make me love you less. I will always be here for you. You will always be my baby boy and I want the very best for you, whatever that is.

You are a good boy. You have an amazing extended family. You are so blessed. Remember this.

Love always,


7 thoughts on “NATE is EIGHT

  1. Lahni

    I totally commented on this this morning but it must have got lost somewhere in cyberspace…
    Happy Birthday Nate – we’re so glad you joined our family 8 years ago!

  2. Nicky Popowich

    Jamie what a beautiful tribute. Those first born boys are special. We love Nate so much and agree he’s a handsome lad.

  3. Lynette

    Happy birthday Nate!! What a cutie!! Jamie, you are such a beautiful person! Gorgeous tribute. Thank you for sharing with all of us:)

  4. Lara

    Your boys are getting so big too!
    This is a wonderful post – and Nate does have the best smile!

  5. Whitney Allen

    Jamie, those boys are so lucky to have you as their mommy. You love them just like a mom should and it’s beautiful.